Learning How to Live • 4/9/24
I would rather die living as myself, as I truly am than living the death-bound life of carrying out the lie you constructed of me, forcing me to play it out like a puppet show. I will not be your toy nor your play thing. In leaving you I found myself and subsequently my desire for life… - learning how to live • Having glimpses (like a life-given dream) of who I am…of who I would become… The life I could/would/will lead It showed up in my interests…my hobbies…things I still carry with me today I glimpsed the essence of my life through the window of a dream…a love And tried my hardest to follow that light to get to where I am today. I am making it out. I am finding a way out. I am almost there.
About lttv
letters to the void. is a collection of short poems on trans and queer existence amid abuse, on Black existence, on mad existence, and the writer’s journey out of imposed darkness
To the reader, please note that the traditional format of the lttv poems follow a chronological theme as the reader goes through the ins and outs of the writer’s life and experiences. Some of this formatting may have been altered or posted out of order to adapt to the Substack platform.
While the journey has been rough, I would like to leave you with these words that have encouraged me through it all <3
" come celebrate
with me that everyday
something has tried to kill me
and has failed " - Lucille Clifton
“Nature held me close and seemed to find no fault with me.” - Leslie Feinberg from Stone Butch BluesDedicated
☆ to myself and for all those in a similar place
☆ to all of my trans siblings and especially my Black siblings <3