Dysmorphia | Dysphoria • 5/13/23
Content Warning: Body image, being sick
I looked in the mirror today And I didn’t like what I saw Maybe it’s the clothes I’m wearing? I look at my torso and want to hurl… Is it dysphoria today? I have a binder on. Frustration. Helpless anguish. Maybe it’s my crop top. My parents always enforced modesty. But I find those values biting me in the ass these days As I hesitantly garner the strength to put on the fit. Falsely claim a disguise of confidence as my brain Frantically assumes people’s thoughts & opinions. I hope that the longer I fake it the further I’ll make it In maintaining and adopting this persona of self-confidence… Self-admiration, self-love even. On the good days it may be more genuine than a disguise On other days… Other days like today I’ll look in the mirror And glare at the person looking back.