To Mom • 5/19/23

Don’t you understand the gravity of what you’re doing
You keep forcing these untrue beliefs into me
Hoping, praying that they’ll pull me closer to you and the God you know
Not even realizing that the harder you pull
The stronger I will push and tug away from you.
You have made me want to die time and time again
And I have grown tired of all your questions
Constantly probing, poking, provoking my identity
As if it will make me question and not stand firm in who I believe to be.
So go ahead if that is what you desire.
Keep pulling, keep probing, and see what happens.
I can promise you that regaining a daughter won’t be the result
And I highly doubt you’ll gain a son either.

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